"Oh, how great are God’s riches and wisdom and knowledge! How impossible it is for us to understand his decisions and his ways!"-(Romans 11:33 NLT)
I read this verse and thought to myself, "how impossible is right!". So many times I have given myself a headache trying to understand something God did. His thoughts and ways are so far above mine! Who do I think I am trying to understand Him? My analytical mind wants an explanation for everything. It wants to put everything in a nice, neat little folder and file it alphabetically for future reference. When I don't "get" something, it drives me crazy until I finally decide to be okay with not understanding - and getting there is not always as easy as it sounds on paper. It usually involves a headache.
The truth is I'm limited - extremely limited. God, however, is not. That makes Him quite a bit superior to me in every way. I need to come to terms with the fact that He cannot be completely understood with my finite brain. I need to be more concerned with simply trusting Him than with understanding Him. I need to trust that HE understands what He's doing and He has it completely under control. My Heavenly Father will give me some understanding as He sees that I am ready to understand it. Step by step, one thing at a time. First the milk, then the meat. Even then, I will not completely understand Him this side of eternity. It's simply not possible. So I think I'll stop giving myself headaches, and work on simply trusting the One who created me. The One who knows exactly what He's doing, even if I don't.